– the last time I pulled off the highway to write something was to write a letter to my childhood best friend who was getting married that weekend and didn’t invite me.

– my high school crush and never-boyfriend used to ditch hanging out with me because he was having an “existential crisis.” It was bullshit but I often times now think that’s how I act.

– November is so painful every year and so rewarding and so crunched up into one unshakable thing. Like I can ball it up and throw it in the trash every year on Dec 1st then instantly regret it.

– I bought my guitar and started playing in a band after my first grown-up boyfriend broke up with me about this time last year. It was more because Luke and I couldn’t stop listening to Tugboat by Galaxie 500 and just wanted to be something close to that song and sound rather than the break up.

– In the summer, I drive north to Michigan. In the winter, I drive north to Wisconsin.

– There was one winter where my friends and I did drive north to Michigan in the winter for my birthday. We got so piss drunk that we got butt naked. I saw my best friend really cry for the first time. I then went into my own cold, cabin room and cried and took a picture of a knocked over mug of whiskey that said “Thinking Of You” on it and sent it to my then grown-up not-my-boyfriend-at-the-time boyfriend.

– One summer when we drove to Michigan I listened to Coldplay’s Viva la Vida on repeat on my ipod

– Another summer in Grand Haven Michigan I matched with a guy on tinder and he wanted me to sneak out of our family rental house and meet up with him so I could read his play manuscript

– I teared up listening to Liar by Built to Spill. Then felt dumb for being someone who cries to Built To Spill.

– The young guy working the toll booth said to me that I was “absolutely gorgeous” before handing me the slip of paper that said I didn’t have cash to pay the toll. I can’t decide if it was inappropriate or endearing.

-I jokingly said to my coworkers the other day, “I love love!” Which wasn’t much of a joke because I’ll do anything in the pursuit of love.

– But last November my grandma died. I was seeing someone and decided to grieve rather than pursue a relationship with him. I think I made the right choice.

– In high school, I was so heartbroken I gave myself mono. But soon after my family drove north to the U.P. for a weekend. I think that’s when I decided driving north cures most all things