Okay. I was going to start this blog awhile ago but I got caught up. Which is dumb because I made the blog in an attempt not to be caught up.

So I’m trying again. This time I’ll be more candid.

I struggle with OCD and generalized anxiety. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship a couple years back that makes me pretty raw in some situations.

I really really want to be more public about where I’m at and that’s why I wanted to have a blog to begin with. My therapist says that I should use my writing skills to help others and share my story so I’m going to try…again.

My anxiety stops me from doing a lot of things and my OCD tells me I can’t do them unless they’re perfect. I’m extremely worried about what people might think and how being candid might, in turn, make me a “bad person.”

So I’ll start by sharing this- my biggest fear is food poisoning and getting sick. I have contamination OCD. I often text my mom pictures of my food. I am 23 and I’m scared of food and it sucks.

Here’s a picture I sent to my mom the other night of a cucumber that got a tad soggy. I ended up throwing the whole thing away because I was too scared and the internet says you can get food poisoning from cucumbers.

So that’s where I’m starting today- if I’m scared a cucumber will make me ill, I’m scared a blog will make me less of a “good person.” But I’m going to try and I want to try so here it is.